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I started this blog as a way to cope with my Mother's physical illness and dementia. She died right before Christmas, 2011 and the focus moved toward losing a loved one. This blog has proved to be a great outlet for me to revisit the last 7 months of her life. Dealing with the pain has been hard. Writing down my memories and frustration seems to have helped me let it go a bit. It has not be an easy thing to do but I hope that has managed to provide a bit of comfort for someone who is dealing with this now. It proved to be a lot harder than I even imagined to keep up with this blog, I have so many entries that I wrote but never published - they just didn't feel right.
I have tried to be honest with my feelings even though I am not proud of how I handled my situation at times. She was an incredible lady and I hope some of her personality before the dementia came through.
Everyone deals with the decline of a loved one in different ways. My writing is based on how I dealt with my Mother's decline. Other people may share my viewpoint and may have experienced similar feelings, or maybe you think that I am so wrong to have felt that way.
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Tag Archives: grief
4 months
I find it hard to believe that four months have passed since I lost my Mother. I think about her daily and still have the urge to give her a call when there is something I would like to share with her. Old … Continue reading
Happy Birthday
My Mom would have turned 95 on Saturday. Looking back, I wish now that we had done something special for her 90th birthday but she was so funny about having people know her age. She had a tendency to cut … Continue reading
My Bad Check Woes
Am I the only person who did not realize that when a bank said your deceased loved one’s bank account is flagged – it means that you can not do anything with it? Looking back, yeh – it was a mistake … Continue reading
Two and a half months
It has been almost 2 1/2 months since my Mom died. I still find myself at times thinking about what I want to tell her when I see her again or walk by something in a store and think Momma would love … Continue reading
The Beauty Shop
A weekly visit to the beauty shop has been a Saturday ritual for as long as I can remember. As a little girl, my Aunt’s appointment was on Thursday morning and my Mom’s was Saturday at 10:30 am. The weather … Continue reading
German Chocolate Pie Served With Memories
We are taking our first long trip since we lost my Mother in December. During her illness, travel was difficult and we have been looking forward to our vacation for quite some time- very exciting to get out and travel. … Continue reading
Insight
I don’t know if this will come across as insightful or insane. But while just staring out the window it came to me. I realized a major part of the reason I feel loss is I no longer have a purpose. … Continue reading
Feeling Lost
The thing that has surprised me the most so far about my Mother’s death is how lost I feel. For almost 2 1/2 years, every day was planned around her. At first we needed to check on her daily and make … Continue reading
A Lonely Place
We live near the cemetery where my family is buried. On our way out of the neighborhood, we go right by it. After my Aunt died in 1991, I avoided driving by the cemetery for probably two months. Now that my … Continue reading
Searching For Our New Normal
The past seven months have been spent at my Mother’s house. Our daily routine would be the same every day. My Mother always was a person of habit and the dementia did not take that away. Up until the last few … Continue reading
The Clothes are in the Stove 