I started this blog as a way to cope with my Mother's physical illness and dementia. She died right before Christmas, 2011 and the focus moved toward losing a loved one. This blog has proved to be a great outlet for me to revisit the last 7 months of her life. Dealing with the pain has been hard. Writing down my memories and frustration seems to have helped me let it go a bit. It has not be an easy thing to do but I hope that has managed to provide a bit of comfort for someone who is dealing with this now. It proved to be a lot harder than I even imagined to keep up with this blog, I have so many entries that I wrote but never published - they just didn't feel right.
I have tried to be honest with my feelings even though I am not proud of how I handled my situation at times. She was an incredible lady and I hope some of her personality before the dementia came through.
Everyone deals with the decline of a loved one in different ways. My writing is based on how I dealt with my Mother's decline. Other people may share my viewpoint and may have experienced similar feelings, or maybe you think that I am so wrong to have felt that way.
Category Archives: Confusion
My Mother died last December 23rd at the age of 94. Up until the last 2 years of her life she was in pretty good shape. Then the downhill spiral began and things changed. Just wanted to share a bit … Continue reading
The five stages of grief are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. But the experience with my Mother made me realize that you can also go through these stages when your life changes dramatically. My Mother’s care was taking more and more of … Continue reading
Last Mother’s Day we took my Mom out to dinner at a local restaurant, Lizard’s Thicket, that was always a hit with my Mother. They serve a meat and 3 (meat and 3 vegetables). I don’t remember for sure but … Continue reading
A weekly visit to the beauty shop has been a Saturday ritual for as long as I can remember. As a little girl, my Aunt’s appointment was on Thursday morning and my Mom’s was Saturday at 10:30 am. The weather … Continue reading
The thing that has surprised me the most so far about my Mother’s death is how lost I feel. For almost 2 1/2 years, every day was planned around her. At first we needed to check on her daily and make … Continue reading
I love January 1st, I love picking out a new calendar for the year. Even though I always wait until they go on sale, I never have trouble finding one I like. We have had calendars that featured barns, quilts, flowers, national parks, and … Continue reading