I started this blog as a way to cope with my Mother's physical illness and dementia. She died right before Christmas, 2011 and the focus moved toward losing a loved one. This blog has proved to be a great outlet for me to revisit the last 7 months of her life. Dealing with the pain has been hard. Writing down my memories and frustration seems to have helped me let it go a bit. It has not be an easy thing to do but I hope that has managed to provide a bit of comfort for someone who is dealing with this now. It proved to be a lot harder than I even imagined to keep up with this blog, I have so many entries that I wrote but never published - they just didn't feel right.
I have tried to be honest with my feelings even though I am not proud of how I handled my situation at times. She was an incredible lady and I hope some of her personality before the dementia came through.
Everyone deals with the decline of a loved one in different ways. My writing is based on how I dealt with my Mother's decline. Other people may share my viewpoint and may have experienced similar feelings, or maybe you think that I am so wrong to have felt that way.
Monthly Archives: January 2012
I don’t know if this will come across as insightful or insane. But while just staring out the window it came to me. I realized a major part of the reason I feel loss is I no longer have a purpose. … Continue reading
The thing that has surprised me the most so far about my Mother’s death is how lost I feel. For almost 2 1/2 years, every day was planned around her. At first we needed to check on her daily and make … Continue reading
We live near the cemetery where my family is buried. On our way out of the neighborhood, we go right by it. After my Aunt died in 1991, I avoided driving by the cemetery for probably two months. Now that my … Continue reading
The past seven months have been spent at my Mother’s house. Our daily routine would be the same every day. My Mother always was a person of habit and the dementia did not take that away. Up until the last few … Continue reading
I have lived between two homes for most of the past year. My life has been split between my Mother’s needs and my families needs. So much of last year was lost because of her illness and the level of care … Continue reading